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preferred to be called: qI
years of existence: Officially 23
preoccupied with: running, rowing, slacking, stoning, the internet, cafes , star-gazing

*loves:
the sea
sea breeze
stars
teh
kaya toast
adidas
mocha
nike sports bras

*DREAMS:
GTO Wanna-Be
Boat shed by the Reservoir
Sunrise by the Beach
Driver in shades

PDA phone
Travel
Adidas shades
Tees and shorts for teaching
Notebook- A gold coloured one?
iPOD Nano 4GB
driving licence
Fossil Gold Wallet
backpack
track pants

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I need a rewarding career. And I need to find meaning in the things I do.

Now, I cant find meaning in the things I do. Corporate life is not my kind of life. Can I see myself climbing the corporate ladder in 5 years time? 10 years time? I cant...Yes I have only been working for less than half a year. But Im already dying..I havent got used to working? Maybe? But will I ever like this kind of life. The job Im doing is interesting. But it's not enough to justify things Im putting into it. The satisfaction seems superficial. An element of emptiness in it.

Why teaching? I wanna impart the values and what i've learnt to kids before they grow old and step into the working world. I hope to inspire. ( Wah! haha is it exxagerating?) But seriously, datz wat I hope to achieve out of this life. Why have I been putting away the job to teach? Cos Im afraid of commitment. At this age, I havent really thot about my future. Yes, bin, I havent thot bout it.

Staring at the sea at Bintan, I tried to calm my soul. I dunno wat I wan out of this life. While you know what u want.

I din used to feel so lost. I alwaz knew wat I want. Dat was years ago. haha. It's like as a person matures, there're more things to think bout. And I kind of forgot bout wat I want ..amidst my many thots. I need time and space to sort things out. I need fresh air and sunshine to brighten my life. I become frail in air-con.(giam-cai mia =( ) I need my confidence and drive. This is not me..At least I hope this is not the "me"

Bintan was a good break. I've alwaz wanted the time to gaze at the sea. And finally haf the time and space to do so. I broke down. In front of the sea. Just trying to pull all my thots together ..thinkin of wat has happened so far. Thinking bout lotsa things. This year is the worst year I've ever had. Next year will be better. Be strong and stay focused. I need to find my way.

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