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preferred to be called: qI
years of existence: Officially 23
preoccupied with: running, rowing, slacking, stoning, the internet, cafes , star-gazing

*loves:
the sea
sea breeze
stars
teh
kaya toast
adidas
mocha
nike sports bras

*DREAMS:
GTO Wanna-Be
Boat shed by the Reservoir
Sunrise by the Beach
Driver in shades

PDA phone
Travel
Adidas shades
Tees and shorts for teaching
Notebook- A gold coloured one?
iPOD Nano 4GB
driving licence
Fossil Gold Wallet
backpack
track pants

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我以为我会忘了。。。

- Under the Canopy of Love -

5:12 PM
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Went for my medical check up today. And my weight is 52kg.

I kind of hope my weight hangs on there haha. I remember back in NJ, I used to be 54kg. And my weight stayed there for as long as I was in the team.

Then back in NTU was when my weight fluctuated the most. In year one, I was ard 55kg?..Then during the time when I was training for SEA Games(Year 2), my weight was at 57-59kg. Scary huh..haha. I bet I had lotsa mass and fats.

After SEA Games (Year 3), I kind of cui..haa..the most I got was 53kg..and the lightest I went was 51kg.

When Im working, think the heaviest I got was 54kg.

Hmm..52kg sounds good to me now. Ok so maintain!

12:10 AM
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A quote taken from an interview featured in Shape Magazine

"Whether it's preparing for a 10km run or a full marathon, perseverance and discipline are needed. When you see someone displaying those qualities, it reinforces the same qualities in you."

I feel Im lacking discipline and perseverance these days.

They used to be with me..haha. Maybe it's the lack of focus these days. Sometimes losing focus/direction can be a good thing too? Cos it allows me the space to review and tk a look at the ppl and things ard me.

Oh well..Thanks for being there.

11:38 PM
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I guess in every one's life..there would come a time when u'll realise the importance of money.

9:37 PM
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*Burp*

Think I ate too much of mum's "zhao pai" fried bee hoon and mee! The team came over to our place this afternoon for the once-a-year CNY gathering. The annual event had kind of become a tradition for our team heh. And am glad dat most of us managed to make time to gather as a team.

Food was of cos the number one focus when everyone stepped in, esp after our trg. Heh we had steamboat and some cooked food. And special thks to Joesie for bringing us the Yu Sheng! It was really yummy!

I avoided all the "gambling dens" in the house. (Cos I've been losing since the first day of new year, so I figured that I shldnt touch tiles or cards for the year..hmph)Ended up chatting with WX, Ber and Peggy. It was a good talk haa and I realised dat it had been quite some time since i caught up with them, thou we see each other very often during trg.

Hope everyone had a good time today! =)

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Training has kind of intensify for the past 2 days esp, with focus shifting to standing row.

My back's been aching esp during yesterday's trg, BUT...it feels really "xing fu" to have jas and meishi massaging for me after every set! haa..

9:55 PM
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Dad says im looking for trouble.

Maybe I am.

7:53 PM
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Hock just showed me sthg astonishing. A k4 pulling a skiier. woohoo~

Then he asked me whether a db could do it too. hmm...Maybe a full 20 crew?

http://www.planetalx.com/images/stories/Video/vannski5.swf

12:41 PM
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haa the reason why I put heartache for my MSN nick yesterday was cos I spent $700 just enrolling and signing up for 10 driving lessons. Heh and the thot of having to spend a total of close to $2k to complete and tk the driving test...oo..pain. So die die muz pass at the first round.

*kampateh*

11:25 PM
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This morning my ipod was playing Liang Jing Ru's Beautiful.

两罐喝不完的啤酒
午后屋顶上的girls's talk
脸颊染上微热彩虹心情该不错
你却一直锁着眉头
从你的口中实况转播

爱惊心动魄
一万个笑容换一场失落
为什么遗失了beautiful
我心中你魔法的源头

看你笑是这样beautiful
迎着风自由的错过
呐喊在逆风的时候
吞下对王子的诅咒

碎花长裙当作斗蓬长剑在手中
你是潇洒的女英雄
那爱情总是让人聋了瞎了又疯了
错过的太多结局太心痛

闭上眼却看见beautiful
你拥有最体贴的朋友
你知道什么是beautiful
你嘴角不自觉的牵动
闭上眼会看见beautiful
你拥有最体贴的朋友
你知道什么是beautiful
失落时温暖的双手

9:53 AM
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Intimacy and Warmth..yet space and independence

I ask a fren .."Do you know what I want?" So he replied,

u wanna be GTO...
inspire the kids...

i think u're very family oriented person..
but have got lotsa drive for competition...

And I asked again, "in relationship?"

i always remember that u wanted some one to support u and stand by you...
in all ur decisions, without doubts....

I need some one who "controls" me when I go "out of control"- to being me down to earth, someone who gives me lotsa space to do the things I wanna do, and yes support when I need them. =)

And I asked another fren, watz my weaknesses

lack of sensitivity.

lackin committment in seeing thru something
when things turns out bad though they seem fun at first

seeing simple explanations for other's shortcomings or mistakes-ie. judgemental

thinks a lot but may not resolve to find a solution out

keepin thoughts to yourself, and not effectively addressin or communicating them. esp. in conflicts..

Yes fren..bingo. U're right. But i tink Im improving liao =) But thks for seeing me as who I am

5:16 PM
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I've just added Google Calendar widget to my blog. But just dun like the idea of not being able to customize the calendar's fill colour. (Im not exactly a blue lover) Guess that's a smart move by Google so they can still showcase their "corporate" colour. Im only allowed the choice to customize the background colour. But it doesnt seem to fit into the overall picture thou. *Scratches head* And I learnt something new today regarding HTML haha. To input the backgrd colour, I have to input the colour code as a hex code haha. So by googling, I managed to get a range of colours and their hex codes! But it doesnt seem like i've gotten a compatible colour thou. haa

And I've opted for "3 entries a day" cos I realised dat my day is usually divided into morning/afternoon and night. Hm does it sound v DUH? haha but it's true dat my day is v well-divided. =)

Havent had the time to update my schedule but seems like the rest of Feb is gonna be rather peaceful for me. No major gatherings at the moment except the lunch steamboat for the NTEAM ladies.

Packed with trainings for the time being. =)

1:57 PM
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This one is quite cool heh =)

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is high. You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person. And in return, you expect the same from who you love. Any sign of straying, and you'll end things. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is high. You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love. Having your own life is very important for you... Even more important than having a relationship.

The Five Variable Love Test

10:08 PM
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No luck on the gambling table this year...

Lost in black jack and mahjong for 2 consecutive days liao. It might be a sign..haa. That I shldnt gamble this yr!

9:39 PM
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Immersed in the local CNY atmosphere!

CNY eve was spent squeezing with the crowd in Chinatown. A few of us went down to take a walk and do some last minute shopping as well. At times, the alleys were so packed that we were unable to move! The worse is at the cross junction where everyone tries to get their way.

We din start buying till after midnight, when we were hoped that the prices will fall. After walking for a few stalls to look for the Japanese jelly, we realised dat the various stalls are selling it @ almost the same price haa. So we ended up not buying for the much looked-for item of the night.

Oh and the firecrackers and fireworks at 12 Midnight. It was damn funny lor..we were so stuck in the alley that we could only catch glimpses of a few sparks and the smokkkee...cos our view was blocked by a building.





Doesnt it look like the building is on fire instead haa.

After midnight, we went to si ma lu's guan yin temple. My first time doing the worships. I was also at guan yin temple during CNY last year but missed out the worship cos dad felt it was too crowded already. But in fact my experience was q a fast one, despite the crowd.

We haf to hold the incense really high up. And immediately after we made the offering, the ppl fr the temple will tk them out. Some devotees will bring the incense back. I tink it's like bringing back the blessings from guan yin niang niang. The rituals here was an "eye-opener" for me. All my almost-23 years in SG, I nv knew of such culture. So im glad I was here tonight =)




Devotees making their entrance into the temple.

I hope my prayers werent too long that made me sound too greedy =)

9:57 AM
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I read this article on Myths of Pigs on the Straits Times this morning. Thot it's quite interesting =)

It's been said that pigs are greedy - FALSE

Pigs do regulate their food intake, and stop eating when they are full, unlike some animals,including humans. ( Ok. I tink Im guilty of this =( )

Pigs are dirty - False

Unlike humans, pigs do not have sweat glands. Thus, they roll around in mud only to cool themselves on hot days. As a result,many pp think that they are dirty creatures when in fact, they are very clean. Given a chance, they would refuse to mess up their living or eating areas

Pigs are stupid - False
Contrary to popular belief, the pig is one of the most intelligent animals on the planet!

- The Straits Times, Saturday Feb 17 2007

7:21 PM
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It was great meeting up with the girls last night.Been so long since we last gathered, and really appreciate everyone coming down last night. It was a birthday celebration for tanny and huiwen, our feb babies..and only after we left Holland V dat I realised dat we din get a cake and sing bday song. =( Sorry sorry...

We settled down at The Coffee Club instead of the initial Crystal Jade. The cafe at Holland V was really quiet and it's got the right ambience for a gathering.

Chat and updated each other of our lives. Except for PY, all of us were there. (And PY, please remember to buy Tanny a Xmas present SOON.)

Next up was the much gian white wine. We walked ard looking for a place which sells reasonably priced wine. Haa but in the end, we still paid like $48 for a bottle at the 211 terrace cafe. It was my first time there =) Next time we shld go learn some wine appreciation haa. Then we'll be able to look more pro when we drink wine =)

So here's some photos grabbed from Huiwen's blog- she's our photographer for every gathering heh.








After that, Marc and Guanyu came to join Shihui and I, the 2 working class of our team haha. We hang out at Wala for another round before making our way back.

Haa I wonder how much I spent last night. But yeah, I felt relaxed chilling out and catching up with everyone =)

10:50 AM
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Finally handed my resignation letter to HR. Today is the 15th.

For a moment, I was confused. But yes, some things might be better left unsaid.

4:00 PM
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Done with the Op.

Even the doctor was laughing at me when she saw me lah =( cos it's the second time that Im visiting her in the past 2 months??..or is it 3? haa Im amused by myself too. The op wasnt as painful as the last time cos it's located at a less complicated spot, so thk goodness haha.

*Talking to my colleague on the phone. And Kat jie-jie misses me. Baoyi is teasing Sandy and Sandy is defending herself over MSN with me. Im missing out the VDay fun in office!!*

Im gonna miss all of them!! And signed my MOE contract already. Yeah so here goes =)



haha think im quite zi lian to put my own "one-eyed" photo. =)

1:41 PM
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Ok. So vday morning is gonna be spent in MOE, signing my contract and attending the briefing.

And following, I'll be going to do my eye operation.

Eventful eh..

10:13 AM
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Gonna go for another eye op. Even the nurse at the counter was like.."eh u just went for one recently?"

Haa. Should I be laughing or sighing.

Guess it has been an eventful year for me so far.

Just like to blog bout this boy whom I read about on Saturday's Straits Times. He just got his O level results and for him, he took 6 years to get his Os. After he completed his Normal Tech education with good results, he appealed to be transfered back to sec 3 express stream. From then, he managed to work hard and get to where he is today. His dream was to be teacher. That was the strength that kept him going.

An inspiring young lad I should say. He had a difficult childhood which probably made him more determined and stronger.

Trials are there to make a person stronger.

10:56 PM
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Eye is swollen again.

Quite difficult to work with half an eye covered. haa

12:15 PM
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Oh No..Im gonna be in deep shit.

My file for work kerna corrupted. Just realised when I wanna start rushing work just now. Supposed to get up last night to complete the work but I was too tired! Just got up..like 6am?

Ok so now i just got to do as much as I can.

Work is due for submission to external party @3pm. So got to let my boss vet thru by 1pm!

6:16 AM
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Squad Gathering 10 Feb 2007!!!Our 10TH Year Anniversary!!

The gathering was held at Samantha's place and we had an attendance of 14 out of 17 (Woohoo)!! Plus Veron (ma'am) and our sq CI - Cindy Ma'am. Haa so many of us GIRLS so u can imagine Samantha's house being totally NOISY!!

Catching up was fun! And one of my sqmates' getting married this July and we volunteered to be jie-meis haha and BRAINSTORMING of ways to "zheng" the groom haa.

Besides catching up on how everyone's doing, we spent some time looking at the totally old photos..haha Right from sec 1 to sec 4, recollecting some of the dumb things we had to do back then.. Ok like trying to figure out wat is a calf fracture, during 1 of our first aid session. But it turned out to be a joke that Cindy was playing with us.. How we had to finish one whole plate of SALAD during sec 1 until our OC den came to rescue us. She was like.."why are u all eating 'GRASS'??" And how Jiahui was made to act like "Tommy The tree" during our first JTC. haha totally stupid. kk photo time!



heh our 10th year anniversary cake. With 10 candles!!



That's the handmade gift from Samantha! We used to do lots of those back during our NP days. Oh well..those were the days when u do sweet things to one another =)



Photo of yuwei, kt and I. And i realised we were in the same grp during our second STC!! haha



Heh the March babies get the privilege of cutting our anniversary cake!



Squad photo! haa ..A lil deja vu! Like one of those we took in NP room! haha

10:10 PM
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Im sorry.

只能这样抱着你,我知道你有些在意,
给他伤了心,才想到可以找你.
只能这样抱着你,我知道你现在伤心,
想有人陪你,只是如此而已.

你知道,我明了.
抱着你,我(你)的泪,却为他而掉.
你知道,我明了,抱着你,温习拥抱.
你知道,我明了,抱着你,我的心有些动摇.
你有的好,他做不到(他有的好,我做不到)
还想他(也许他),可能等我回家(等你回家),
在我们(你们)相识的楼下.
还想他(也许他),可能拨我电话(拨你电话)留话.
还爱他(你爱他),我从没怀疑过(没怀疑过),
今晚心底的挣扎,我不说你明白吗?
我不说你明白吗~~~~~~~~~

---<<只能抱着你>> 梁静茹,光良

11:57 PM
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I realise how sucky it is to feel lost.

Im not gonna let myself go thru it again!

Im gonna chill with life haha.

1:21 PM
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I stepped out of my house this morning.

Took out my ipod. Stuffed the earphones in my ears..and here goes my first song of the day:-

"Always Look On the Bright Side of Life, *whistle*..."

hahha =)

9:25 AM
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Deep down...

Thank you for the memories.

Thank you for all these years.

Thank you for having been there, being with me.

我最快乐那一年
是你陪我经历一切
什么都生动又强烈
有真正在活着的感觉
我们最快乐的那一年
像浓缩了最精华的时间
短暂却永远是火焰
在情绪冰凉时暖和心田
也许遗憾和年轻
总绑在一起
不容许一点委屈
等放手才懂惋惜
静下心来发现过去大半是甜蜜回忆

----梁静茹 <<最快乐那一年>>

7:32 AM
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Was just chatting with my colleague when I realise that I have crashed every single computer and laptop that I have ever used.

For both my jobs after I grad, I crashed the company's computer. And personally, I owned an Acer laptop, which crashed recently. Previously, I had a Fujitsu, which I "smashed" the screen.

haha

3:18 PM
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An ordinary day.

I took half day to catch up on some beauty sleep. My eye bags are terrible. Haa and Pris has got discounts for Lancome and Ralph Lauren, compliments from our SIA ger to be. =) Maybe I shld get some eye cream and the Ralph perfume? heh

The night scene of Kallang basin at night has always touched my heart. Stars, sea breeze, waves and the skyscrapers of the CBD area. I love it =)


I've never fallen. I was just 'injured'. Just a lil strengthening and I'll be ready to face the world all over again.

I made promises to myself.

Woo the chocolate cake for Jasmine's bday is making feel sinful haha. Alright time to sleep. zzz...

11:34 PM
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Stop "haunting" him.

You've got your answer already.

10:58 AM
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Neighbour jio-ed me to the temple at Sengkang just now when I got back.

At the temple, i felt a sudden tranquility. We did the usual ritual of praying. Then neighbour went to "qiu qian" while I was standing outside the temple cos I wasnt really into "qiu qian" He got his lot and somehow..I wanted to gif it a try too. So he taught me the procedure of it.

I knelt and asked. I shook the tin filled with "qian". The ONE fell out. It was lot 38.

Then next was to throw the 2 red crescents. So it was a positive lot for me cos the crescents were flipped in an alternate manner.

I checked the slip of paper for lot 38.

It replied my question.

"Move on with an open heart. The clouds will clear eventually and u'll start anew"

After dinner I took a long walk back from Compasspoint. Felt that I needed the space to breathe. The moon is round..kind of hidden behind the clouds. Too bad it was too cloudy, so there wasnt any stars. Luckily I din meet any stray dogs along the way =)

Somehow Im glad for what had happened.

10:24 PM
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Jacky Cheung's Latest Hit. Not sure whether it's out in the market yet thou. =)
But a really touching song.

张学友-好久不见

也许一天再相逢
说声好久不见沉默了

曾经我打听过
你最近的生活
忙碌工作之余
是否有运动
今天和昨日不同
我不在你身旁
不甘寂寞的你
是不是很难过
至于我过得还不错
不如以前疯
那一家迪斯科
我再也没去过
天凉了
挂念了
有从前还是好的
这熟透的脸孔
我还真的舍不得
和你的
记住了
虽然将来会尘封
说声好久不见
沉默了

我希望是一片云朵
飘到你的天空
安安静静地望着
你是否快乐
只能这样了
不打扰
你平静生活
亲爱的我在这
祝你平安喜乐

12:37 PM
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Focus. Toughen up and Move it

12:18 PM
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I took a cab to work dis morning.

And I was caught in the jam on CTE.

I was almost reaching my office when the uncle started speaking to me in MALAY. Sian diao lah. The uncle thot Im a MALAY...

11:37 AM
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Just when boss decides to gimme an increment, I told him bout my intention to leave.

I guess he's nice and he's seen that I have made up my mind.

It's a personal choice, I told him. And it's got nothing to do with my company, the ppl ard me or the job scope.

I asked myself whether I'll haf any regrets leaving the job. I told myself 'no'

1:04 AM
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A different MV from the one I uploaded earlier. =) A song which kind of describes how Im feeling now. Yeah I love Elva!




She's really hot here! Elva!! Watch her dance!

10:05 AM
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Just read something insightful that my colleague sent. It's regarding relationships. Kind of long but definitely meaningful:-


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DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, " How do I know if I married the right person ?"

I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, " It
Depends. Is that your husband ?"

In all seriousness, she answered " How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's
Weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with
Your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked
Their idiosyncrasies.

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't
hard. In fact, it was a
Completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called " falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, " I was swept of my feet." Think about the
Imagery of that __expression. It implies that you were just standing
There; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience.

But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It's the
Natural cycle of
EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls
Become a bother ( if they come at all), touch is not always welcome ( when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you
Think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, " Did I marry
The right person
?" And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of
The love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their
Unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is
The most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, church, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage.
It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You
Could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because ( listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find " LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the __expression " the labor of love."
Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it
Takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific
Things you can do ( with or without your spouse ) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe ( such as gravity),
There are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise
Program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your

Relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... You can " make" love.

Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling.

5:35 PM
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This morning I managed to fit into a pair of pants which I havent been able to fit in for a long while. Heh =)

Maybe I shld make a trip to BKK to buy those adidas shorts and decent t-shirts (My t-shirts cant make it). They sell them much cheaper there.

11:11 AM
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