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preferred to be called: qI
years of existence: Officially 23
preoccupied with: running, rowing, slacking, stoning, the internet, cafes , star-gazing

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adidas
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Boat shed by the Reservoir
Sunrise by the Beach
Driver in shades

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Travel
Adidas shades
Tees and shorts for teaching
Notebook- A gold coloured one?
iPOD Nano 4GB
driving licence
Fossil Gold Wallet
backpack
track pants

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After much thots and advice, I have decided to enter the teaching service officially.

Towards the end of my 10 weeks in school, I realised dat in many areas, Im not equipped with the skills to teach. Then, it dawned upon me that the meaning behind the comment which "Anonymous" had left earlier on my blog. Being an untrained teacher, I am not skilled in many areas which will not be of benefit to the students.

I need to move on. And the only way to get moving to to get trained. Then will I be able to embark on my career, to tk on responsibilities.

My school experience will still be in my current school which means I can still spend some more time with my kids!

Many admin stuffs which are to be settled during this hols. I wont be able to make it for the registration dates which has been allocated to all cos of the Macau Race. So probably, I'll haf more admin work to settle.

10:03 PM
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I've been thinking of making a trip to Cambodia since last year. haa..but had put it aside for the time being. Been chatting with a friend and he shared with me his experience in Cambodia doing some community service. It kind of rekindled my interest to travel to Cambodia.

A look at my schedule and commitments, only in December can I realise the trip. Probably mid-Dec IF we are going for the Games. If not, early Dec probably. Was quite happy when I checked out Lonely Planets to see that the best period of travel to Cambodia is during dec and jan! (Yeah! Just nice!) I'll probably look at going to Siem Reap first..to check out one of the world's 7 wonders and to further experience the culture.

"For after two decades of war and isolation, only now is Cambodia truly starting to recover from the Khmer Rouge's genocidal 1975-79 rule. A visit to sites commemorating their atrocities will paralyse your soul and enlighten your mind...you'll never look at the world the same again."
Taken from Lonely Planet

I remembered when I was in Pri 2, my dad actually spent a year with the UN mission in Cambodia. He will return once in awhile, with stories and photographs of his experience there. I think subconciously, it aroused my interest towards Cambodia.

Just checked out the tix from jetstarasia and it's ard $158, excluding taxes for a 2-way trip. haa. But I wont be able to confirm the trip until late Sep, based on my experience. *keeping my fingers crossed*

10:01 AM
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Last weekend, our team headed up to Melaka for our first over"seas" race of the year. It was a local Melaka race and only when we reached the destination dat we realise dat the race was not exactly very competitive. But anyhow, we still managed to haf a short weekend getaway =)



Picture taken on the bus - On our way to Melaka



Practice at the canal. The water level was freaking low.

And guess in terms of equipment, we did haf a "culture shock".The paddles were freaking heavy and not standardized in terms of length, width and even height! The shaft was pretty rough and many of us suffered blisters from our first practice. Besides the paddles, even the boat was of a different make, thou lighter wat we used in SG. We dun even haf to wear life vests to compete. The vests were just left on the boat. So just in case anything happens, the organizer can say that ..yes the rowers have been issued life vests.



The 2 teams pacing with each other during the practice. Picture taken from a bridge.



We stayed at this apartment - Water City Apartment. The view was nice, air was fresh haha..and 4 of us shared one apartment, except for my group. haa. And I was with WX in the same apartment. Our 3rd time rooming tog?



R & R @ Jonkers Walk during the evening (first day). I cant believe i bought 50 RM of magnetic clips which I distributed to my PE colleagues and the rest, given as prizes to one of the classes i played a game with. haha



Race day. Our one and only race for the ENTIRE event. There were a total of 3 teams, with 2 being "zi ji ren" and the third team, a local team made up of matured ladies. They represented a religious group in Melaka but actually this particular grp has been listed as a cult group in SG. woo..

Anyway, our race was the only race whereby the drummers are the ones holding the rope at the start line. There was freaking no rules and regulations.



To mk our trip to Melaka more fruitful, we had another pacing session immediately after our official race.



I was the drummer for Boat A of the men's team. haha think I looked quite xiong! woo..

A collision and foul play happened. Dun tink i wanna elaborate further. The race ended q ugly. bUT on the flip side of it, i've learnt a valuable lesson on sportsmanship from their race! Which I have been sharing with my kids,

12:24 AM
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I got this comment from this anonymous which is making me uncomfortable.

Think im not dat bad till I'll kill the students. But I feel dat im still not good enough yet.. I think everyone learns and improves along the way.

And ultimately,i havent exactly had a feel of teaching yet cos I've yet to tk on the responsibilities during my contract term. Datz why Im nt sure bout commiting myself to the years.

True that Im trying out my career..but Im sure that Im nt dat bad now. But thanks for the thot-provoking comment.

11:21 AM
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I've finally wrote in to MOE to extend my contract, after much ponders and thots.

This is to give myself more time to explore teaching as a career before officially stepping into it. I have been very concious of my emotions and behavious lately..on how I respond to certain issues in school, how I react to certain students in school and finally asking myself the question..am i ready to embark on this career where sometimes I get migraine after a few lessons in the morning, thou im alwaz very excited and glad to see my kids in the morning haa.

I realised dat at times, I become q bo chup about things and nv exactly mk the effort to listen to my students. Like just "heck it" but i realised in teaching, my attitude is nt right.

And my level of maturity doesnt seem to tally with dat of a teacher. To be a mentor, I believe it also takes a certain level of maturity so dat Im able to "educate" these students of the right etiquette.

I guess everything has its pros and cons. But whether one outweighs the other, I believe only after trying out, will I be able to gauge. Since Im still young (haha!), maybe I shld just give myself the opportunity to explore further. =)

8:42 AM
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Oh yah. And I took my weight yest..Im 54KG, before I had my meal.

And I was snacking thru the day..til the point I fell asleep. =(

k..please stop snacking.

9:44 AM
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My new mattress feels really comfortable. heh..

The only time when I was awaken from my sleep was ard 6, which was my usual getting up time. But I realised my King Koil was too comfortable for me to pull myself out of bed! heh. So i ended up sleeping str till 8am! Yeah!!

My new mattress is much thicker den my old one, which explains why my bedsheet cldnt cover my entire bed. haa..It looks funny haha. But dun care..as long as I can haf my beauty sleep.

Dad was saying that it's my mind datz making the judgement haha. Maybe?? I spent quite a bit on this mattress, of cos I muz assure myself dat it justifies the amount dat i spent. WX was asking whether my mattress cld last me for another 20 years. And I replied her that it cld last me for another 5yrs and hopefully, by the next 20 years, I wont be sleeping on a single bed. haha

9:23 AM
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Sore throat..just went down to the canteen to get myself some "liang teh"

Im wondering whether it was cos of the feast I had yesterday at Swensons dat resulted in my sore throat. Had a dinner with my PE dept @ Sengkang's Swensons yest. And oh man, my dept can REALLY EAT! haha. The banana crumbler is still as good but I realised the blondie aint too bad too.Sinful huh..but satisfying. Enjoyed the company of my colleagues while we "comment" on the food ..joked bout events in the school haha. =)

Think Im really gonna miss everyone if I were really to go.

Now waiting for the time to go down to collect the exam scripts from the students. I was just told by my colleague dat I'll hav to help to mark section A of their chemistry paper. But I've yet to receive any news from my HOD. Yesterday evening @ the dinner, I was still happily telling my HOD dat I dun haf papers to mark.

In addition to the 2 PE trainees dat haf done their practicuum in our sch, there'll be another 2 others who will be joining the sch. And dat makes 6 PE teachers, including out HOD herself. And I heard dat it's possibly the max number of PE teachers which a school can haf.

My gastric is kind of feeling uncomfortable from the good food yesterday and the night before. Can feel the fats forming ard my torso area. Arghh too much of carbo these days..Plus I think I've missed my period for April, so Im feeling darn bloated and tired.

8:50 AM
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My HOD had just informed me this afternoon dat the school has already approved my entry to NIE and haS already sent the letter back to MOE. I kind of got a shock after the news came to me.

Haf been stoning for quite some time.

I bought a new mattress! KING Koil..*toi..* It costs a lot. Plus my hair dye yesterday, I tink I have to refrain from spending for the coming month. My colleague offered to bring me lunch for the rest of the week. hhaha.

10:39 PM
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Finally got my hair dyed to cover all the highlighted streaks.

Got in the salon at 7plus ..haha and in fact, it was past their closing time. But heng, I still managed to "barge" my way in to get my much-planned hair dye.

I was quite paiseh to be the last customer in the salon. haa nontheless, Im glad dat i finally had my highlights covered!

9:49 PM
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Somehow I just feel the tension that is building up within the team.

It started earlier this week with dad's expectations with regards to the team's attendance. He kind of "boycotted" the trg session cos of poor attendance. I guess we all understand that he is under stress for the team's performance. But somehow it ain't easy to balance our other commitments and trg.

He's raising his voice more often during trgs. Which kind of frustrated some of us..it doesnt feel good to be shouted at time and again.

All these are signs of his stress.

Hope everyone can find a balance.

Races are coming up.
- Malacca 19/20 May (should be more or less confirmed)
- Macau 17-20 June ( dunno whether it's confirmed)
- June Race 30 jun-1 july (dis is darn confirmed)

8:00 PM
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Finally watched Spidey! all 11 of us! heh And I fell asleep towards the end of the show, practically too emotional and draggy at the back. *yawn* But no doubt the show was good- Action-packed + humour + romance. haha a typical plot I supposed.

Lesson ob had been poseponed till 18 may cos my HOD was on MC.*PHEW* more time to prepare and get myself more ready.

12:43 AM
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Dad just announced dat we'll be going for an overseas race - Malacca. haha thou it's just across the bridge, I guess it's still better den nothing.

Im feeling sleepy but still haf to plan for a lesson tmr. My first official lesson taking a class. haa my first and only observation for this term i hope. I realised dat the classes seldom do stretches, so I'll like to guide them thru some stretching exercises.

I think for myself ..60% I'll still like to stay for another year. the other 40% is telling me to be practical. But at this moment, i cant give myself a definite "yes". Think Im the kind who needs more time to assure myself of a decision.

10:40 PM
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Now it's the time I start asking myself whether Im ready to move on. Or rather, ready to go back to school. It feels like I havent achieved much from my stay in the current school. Many times, I dun get to take a class on my own. I dun in fact get a taste of organizing a class. Now I dun get assessed..but once I enter NIE, I'll be assessed. It's really a period for me to try..nt to try whether I like this job but try to explore ways of managing students before officially entering NIE to learn THE STANDARD WAY of managing students.

And neither haf I had a holistic picture of what life as a teacher is. I wonder if the school still wanna tk me in haha.. If i chose to stay. It feels neither here nor there sometimes. But being a full-fledged teacher sounds good since I get more pay and am able to tk on full responsibilities as a teacher. But somehow I feel like Im being held back, not cos Im still in doubt..but more like I havent exactly achieved much and now I have to go.

11:13 AM
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Yeah finally managed to book the tix online! The tix for this fri's Spidey was selling fast.7pm show thou.and I just book for 11 of us. After a few tries (cos the "Server Encountered Internal Errors"..*cold sweat*), I finally got the tix!! haha

Hope everyone will have a great time watching the show this Fri!

10:31 PM
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My spidey outing din manage to come true cos of the overwhelming response of the general SG popn who have gone online to book their tix!

I guess booking yesterday night for this evening's spidey is too late, esp when it's a Public Holi cum first day of the show! Most of the cinemas are "FULLY BOOKED" grr..And we had 12 of us who wanna watch it this afternoon. I tried internet booking last night. But the net was totally down.."connection timed out!" for the 2 cinema chains in SG- GV & Cathay.

So now, I have just tried sendin out SMSes to the team again. This time round, I'll be booking tix for this coming Fri 7pm show at Plaza Sing! Muz hurry! Tix are going fast too!!

6:34 PM
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I wonder if i've really gotten over it sometimes.

Sometimes when life gets really busy and hectic..it hardly comes back to me. Was just reminded of things when I recently chatted with a "colleague" in school. Mayb it's just some lingering emotions which needs more time..

12:48 AM
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